We live in a world where pain exists daily. Some try to eradicate this pain with greed, suicide, bullying, drugs, alcohol, sex and so much more. This is NOT the world our perfect God desired for us. But He allows it. We know God as a Holy God (Isaiah 6:3), a Righteous God (Psalm 7:11), a Just God (Deuteronomy 32:4), and a Sovereign God (Daniel 4:17-25). So how do we reconcile this?
When I was little my older brother told me if I kept digging I would reach China, and I believed him! My brother had pain, yet he didn’t dig. Today marks 5-years when he stopped digging, and now, I only go so deep when I dig. It hurts to go to deep. I cannot stand days when I have to deal with my pain. Pain that has been pushed down so deep I’m not sure if I’ll ever reach China. Now, I just want to reach Heaven and be with him.
I’m talking about digging into myself – pulling up the mire and muck down in the depths of my soul where only sadness and darkness reside. Then I read Psalm 40:2 “He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.” And I remember the day of my salvation, when God reached down and pulled me up and told me “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11. And I think of all that has happened to me and give praise to God that I can hold on to Habakkuk 3:17-19 “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to tread on the heights.”
What does that mean? It’s about faith. Faith to trust our Almighty Father God in all His wisdom no matter the circumstances. Yes, I can trust that God will give me what I need to climb today’s mountain. And when I stop digging, to pause, and look upward, I marvel at all His Glory and I know His Peace is with me.
You are not alone, nor do you need to ever feel lonely. For God, my friend, is always with you. Keep the faith and trust in Him.
Maria Wilson is an ordinary person with a passion for Jesus. She strives for peace of mind from a chaotic past and looks for ways to bring God into daily lives of others as a source of reassurance, not as a series of rules and commandments. She is married, has two boys and lives in Yardley, PA.